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*** 5th August 2:00AM Astreal Pictures Uploaded!***

Baybeats rocked! If you missed it, well to bad for you, you only get to see the pictures if you saw it you know how much it rocked, see the pictures and relive the moments!

Whence He Came \ Buddhistson \ Surreal \ Vertical Rush \ Last Days of April \ People Shots! \ Astreal \

Love the shots? Hate em? Tell me!



about


My name is Liang and I lead a mundane life. I engage in activities like photography, guitar-ing, songwriting, changing blog designs and rotting. I love rotting.

I am sometimes mildly depressive and when I am, I lament about how nobody loves me and how long I've been single.

I sport retro hair but I'm too poor to complete the look.

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PITAS
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THEPIKE NO MORE
depression creeps in..
Screw this, I moved to The Polaroid Show.

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10:31 a.m.
Sunday, October 3, 2004

 




M-A DAY
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"M-A" stands for Medical Appointment and those two letters are beautiful alphabets when you are in the army, another beautiful thing is this little paper slip called the off-pass.

Say it with me, "Off pass". I was on the 10am ferry back to Singapore from Tekong, I got my custom made insoles for my flat feet which means I will have to start running and do whatever everyone else does.

A side of me hopes these insoles will work fine because that means I will be painless when I run and train. The bunch I'm with now make me wanna train and I don't wanna miss moments like that. (uh, more about that later)

...

The other side of me crosses its fingers and wish the insoles don't really work so that I can be a slob forever and ever.

O and to those who've been praying or to those that I've shared to things with my mates in camp are going pretty good I'd say. My lovely friends will be popping over later and it's gonna be a good evening, happy mid-autumn festival, light the lanterns!

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05:31 p.m.
Friday, September 24, 2004

 




WEEKLY UPDATE 1A
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Uh, this one is my update about my weekend. I couldn't resist going to another off-shore island, so I went to Sentosa with Jon to tan, he wanted to get a nice tan and I wanted to sun my skin like how they sun mattresses to get rid of bed bugs.

We found out that 15 minutes a side for tanning is enough for a nice healthy brown tan without the pain of sunburn and feeling like a walking nuclear fission core constantly emitting heat.

Jeanie joined us after that and we just "nua-ed" a little more and we packed lunch back to church to eat and the young adults were at RP for SPORTAFRENZIA, a sports day sort of thing, very fun! We were the runners up for soccer, the game went to penalties, I thought Eleena did really well kicking da ball!

And then there was Young Adult Service for part 3 of the Cat and Dog theology, it was good stuff! OH and bathing in church was a new experience, heh, coolness bathing over a toilet bowl. (Cos the shower's over the toilet bowl)!!! See you next Friday!

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01:58 p.m.
Sunday, September 19, 2004

 




WEEKLY UPDATE 1
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This weekend's been pretty good, I'll get to that after I tell you what happened during the week...

This is a journal entry I wrote on 160904, so here goes...

Some dude who keeps dissing me dissed my God, I was filled with anger thinking it was "holy wrath" and I told him he could diss me if he wanted just don't diss my God.

After my supposedly "holy wrath" subsided I was reminded of Jesus' prayer. "Father, forgive them; for they do not know what they are doing." So my prayer went along those lines lah...

Perhaps it was a continuation of my anger into self-righteousness, acting spiritual and "praying for my enemies", "placing myself on the same level as my Lord"... Blah blah...

I hope I did not say the "prayer for my enemy" with a self-righteous spirit/attitude but rather with a sincere and compassionate attitude. Must be like Jesus mah, right?

Penned at 10:44am

That was 3 days ago and I believe the Lord spoke to me through the Bible yesterday while I was in YA, I was reading James 1:19b-20... "But everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak and slow to anger; for the anger of man does not achieve the righteousness of God"

I also wrote some lyrics thingie, it's a dialogue sorta thing so here goes...

That was the last straw
There is a chance for him yet
Show him what YOU can do
Show him what I did for you
Strike down those who oppose you
I did not strike you down

So ends the dramatic episode, maybe CFS can make it into a song, something that sounds like TAKING BACK SUNDAY, yeah!

This must be a very long post... I'll post in another post

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01:42 p.m.
Sunday, September 19, 2004

 




SLEEPING ON MY OWN BED
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Even though I slept on my own bed, I still had new, fresh, red and itchy bites on me! Which means I have a mites under my skin! I'm a dertee boy! Haha...

I am not looking forward to booking in, I am already looking forward to my next weekend out! I will be going to church later, yay!

I covet prayers, as always, you can pray for my wellbeing in all aspects, pray for my family (they are not believers) and just pray as the Spirit leads!

I am glad I bumped into some of Sonic crew yesterday, esp. Alee! Heh... I met up with a coupla people and I'm gonna see so many more later at church! Woohoo! It's been a blessed weekend, thank you friends. Love ya all.

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piked at
08:26 a.m.
Sunday, September 5, 2004

 




WATERPARADES AND IMAGINED ROMANCES
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Hah! So much for confinement, I'm back after a week in BMTC 1/F, reportedly the "siongest" company in BMT. I think they haven't start whacking us yet, but oh well.

First I am only back because of a study for obese bmt, no I didn't get into obese bmt, I volunteered to take part in the study, I think I'm a control group, yes, I remember my science.

My first night in BMT was the worst of all nights, I had a sorethroat which led to a fever of 38.8C! I slept in the sickbay with well... not first class treatment for sure lah. The next few days I had attend-b (that means light duties). So my first four days were spent slacking...

Aiyah, army is no fun lah, I cannot lead this kind of life as much as I am interested in war films, lit and hardware. The interest is just not enough to get me going, all we are doing now is aiming to get a pass for our IPPT (Army NAPFA minus SIT and REACH).

Enjoy your civilian life! I'll see you in church the next Sunday! Yeah.

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02:05 p.m.
Wednesday, August 25, 2004

 




FAREWELLS AND LONG GOODBYES
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By the time you read this I will already be gone, I'll probably be on the fast craft journeying to the evil land of Pulau Tekong, to face evil trials and perils, like heat rashes and special forces mosquito, learning from the sergeants and warrant officers. Hahaha... Read on...

Over the past few days I've been treated like a prince, little treats, letters and gifts have been superb, but the best of all was your presence! Even if it was for a little while, a long while like Joey when I spent the night at his place, or a little phone call, a stop I'm going to pray for you by Pastor Cuixian or a Everyone surround me prayer by some 10 guys laying hands on me.

I feel like NS is like going to some mission trip and in some ways I see it as a mission trip, it will be a testing of my beliefs and whatever things that I hold so dear and profess so much about. I will finally get to experience what so many of my brothers have been talking about, not that I am keen but I'm not avoiding it either. It's gonna rock! I'm gonna have fun, maybe bring some souls into the Kingdom, and grow in God!

If I spent even a minute with you this past week, I love you, everyone of you, I might not show it or it might not even seem so (i'm still learning), you'll know, you'll see! I covet your prayers and smses!

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06:31 p.m.
Monday, August 16, 2004

 




THANK YOU VERY NICE SO NICE
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Thank you one and all who came for my "farewell" gig, I don't wanna type names out because I know I will forget someone one.

I never expected so many people, never expected it to be so emotional for me! I was left so "hung out to dry, after my blood's been drained", after the set. I just gave it my all! I thought I was unfit or because I swam earlier but apparently Jenn felt the same way too!

Thank you band, for making my songs rock, Jenn, Jon, Jem and Jesus! We're a five-piece band!

ALL GLORY TO GOD!

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piked at
01:16 a.m.
Saturday, August 14, 2004

 




CAMY BERRY JAM
depression creeps in..
Sounds yummy doesn't it? Had a good time of prayer and waiting on God at prayer meeting. God let me realise how hard it is sometimes to quieten our hearts so that we can hear that still small voice, but when we do quiet our selves down that voice is so clear.

I just had this urge to pray and to exhort the ministry to spend more time seeking God in their "secret prayer closets" as Pastor Cuixian said if we didn't know our shepherd, how were we going to lead the congregation to worship Him?

Then sometime through the meeting, Pastor CX asked what holiness meant to one and the first thought that came to my mind was "To not do what Jesus wouldn't do." Notice, the negative?

But I was corrected in my mind, from a voice I believe to be God's, and was said to me, "No Liang, rather, it is to do what I (God) would do." The human mind just jumps to negativity, or at least mine does, the half empty glass.

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03:03 a.m.
Thursday, August 12, 2004

 




MOVIE: THE VILLAGE
depression creeps in..
Loved it! Was really apprehensive at first 'cos it's a supposedly horror film, but turned out it was a thriller! So that was fine, I'm starting to like thrillers with twists. Go catch it if you can!

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02:25 a.m.
Saturday, August 7, 2004

 




AFTER THE HUSTLE & THE BUSTLE
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Woke up at 10 am...
Achievement...
Haven't woke up in time for morning for a long while...
Read my bible...
It's good to dwell on the Word...
Sitting in front of the PC thinking of girls from faraway places...
Like a pauper thinking of a princess...

Those last two lines were paraphrased from songs, FSF and Brandtson respectively.

At least now I get to rest, and I managed to sleep before 1am last night! I've been meaning to do that and this morning I managed to read my bible and spend some QQT (Quality Quiet Time) with God.

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10:23 p.m.
Monday, August 2, 2004

 




SONIC FESTIVAL 2004
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Thank you all who made it in time to support Claire's Flower Shop and Recluse today! It was really nice to see so many familiar faces turning up for our performances.

Claire's Flower Shop will be playing on the 7th August (SAT) at Ngee Ann Poly, we'll see you there yes? Goodnight... I really need to sleep.

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11:46 p.m.
Saturday, July 31, 2004

 




UNITY IN THE BODY OF CHRIST
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Ephesians 4:1-6
1As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. 2Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love. 3Make every effort to keep the unity of the Spirit through the bond of peace. 4There is one body and one Spirit--just as you were called to one hope when you were called-- 5one Lord, one faith, one baptism; 6one God and Father of all, who is over all and through all and in all.

That was what God's Word impressed upon me the whole of yesterday. With events like Sonic Fest round the corner, the devil wants to sow discord and divide the Christians against one another so that we are not effective for God! We are called to bear each other in love and maintain peace!

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12:24 p.m.
Thursday, July 29, 2004

 




OCIFER COMMISSIONING PARADE
depression creeps in..
Our dear boy Joey tan has become a oficier of the Singapore armed forces! See the pictures here!

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05:01 p.m.
Monday, July 26, 2004

 




MORE PICTURES AVAILABLE
depression creeps in..
Baybeats is a people event so the pictures to go up after all my favourite bands' pictures are up are the PEOPLE pictures go up next! Click on it, maybe you'll yourself in the pictures!

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02:13 p.m.
Friday, July 23, 2004

 




FIRST SET OF BAYBEATS PICTURES
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Yes! The first set of Baybeats pictures are up! I'll be gradually uploading them for your viewing pleasure as the days go!

The first set of pictures are of Whence He Came!!! one of my favourite bands of all time and definitely a favourite pick of Baybeats 2004! Go check it out here!

I'll gradually add more collections to the baybeats2004.fotopic.net site! Keep going back to check for more! I just uploaded Buddhistson pictures!

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11:11 a.m.
Wednesday, July 21, 2004

 




BAYBEATS
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It's 5am, I made gifts for Supermarket Hero, Buddhistson, Whence He came (in order of appearance), they rocked. Those and Surreal are my picks for this BAYBEATS!

I'll post up pictures and some reflections on the whole event, when it's over .)

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05:08 a.m.
Sunday, July 18, 2004

 




LIGHTNESS
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Your heart is a river that flows from your chest through every organ, and your brain is the dam and I am the fish who can't reach the core -Deathcab for Cutie

The lyrics on the song "Lightness", nothing short of beautiful. Let me add on to it...

I am the fish, that boy's a dam, your memories are a dam, and I'll never reach the source of the river. O so sweet, and so bitter, heart-wrenching.

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02:43 p.m.
Thursday, July 15, 2004

 




EXPIRED
depression creeps in..
I fear I am going to be shelved forever and ever...

Ambulance by The Gloria Record weeps in the background...

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12:09 a.m.
Tuesday, July 13, 2004

 




OME-EMO
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If I love her I'd release her, like how Christ let's do our thing, whatever thing we wanna do right? Haha, this is my first emo post since the retreat. I cannot always be crappy, all smiles and theological right? Hmm...

How do I know if I love a girl like she should be loved and how do I know if she'd love me back?

So mafan one..

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10:27 p.m.
Sunday, July 11, 2004

 




YAY FOR MOLDY PASTRY
depression creeps in..
I was wondering why my stomach was acting up for the past few days till just a while ago when I discovered the mold on the things I ate just two days ago!

Moldy ji dan gao (chicken egg cake)!

Oh Shuyu has a new smiley, I suggested this .> and it was to be called POOT, she didn't like it saying it sounds like fart, so I said POOP also can, she didn't like it again (women today so hard to please) and then I said TOOP. She actually considered it (did you nik?) but she didn't know what I had in mind.

TOOP's the sound of your faeces hitting the water man! SOLID crap only. But she finally settled on this x> naming it DEEB. So there you have, DOOB .) and DEEB x> ...

Urm, all that kek sai-ing has got to my brains. This post is dedicated to Maisie, she inspired me from her blog. (Read: Maisie)

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12:30 a.m.
Saturday, July 10, 2004

 




STOP DOING
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Have you seen the DHL TV commercial? The one that takes place in a meeting room and the boss tells his workers a list of "NOT TO DO ITEMS?"

Well such is the way of attaining Salvation, or whatever you call it, Justification, making right with God etc...

Our righteous acts are like filthy rags in God's eyes as said in Isaiah 64:6.

Are you trying to buy Salvation? Jesus Christ already paid the price as portrayed in the oh-so-graphically film, The Passion of the Christ.

How can you not be moved?

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12:32 a.m.
Friday, July 9, 2004

 




RECOUNTING MY SUNDAY
depression creeps in..
Waking up at 9am on my own for the first time in a long, long while. Got to church and sang in choir, forgot my parts for a song but it was all good, great even, worshipping my King in the choir!

Joyce came to church with Nik who came back after a long while, welcome Joycey, welcome back Nik. Luv ya too (Read: Shuyu)

Hung out with Nik and Maisie and Joey. Again, (Read: Shuyu) and you'll see some rad pictures, but the radest ones are not up yet!

Hung out with Joey at his place and it was good too, it's always good. Luv you bro.

Jenn gets special mention too! I've been hanging out with him for the past week, luv you too bro! It's always great to hang with you! That's it, hehehe, the next post is gonna be a lil theological! .) Good night now.

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01:37 a.m.
Monday, July 5, 2004

 




PRAY LAH
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Prayer meeting was awesome, I really wished more of our youths would go now. I always thought it was boring but today, the whole congregation was repenting man.

Pastor Calvin Lee was saying that the church as a whole was sinning of prayerlessness. And the many of the congregation of probably a 100-200 people were kneeling and repenting for neglecting prayer. I encourage you, if you are a christian to not just go for service but go, go for prayer meeting.

John MacArthur of Grace to you ministries says in an article "Acts 2:42 says the believers continually devoted themselves to prayer. Sadly, the same devotion to prayer is often neglected today. Churches can pack pews by offering entertainment, but when a prayer meeting is held, only a faithful few trickle in."

It's true you know? We have about 3000 members but less than 10% of our members were here! Will you go for prayer meeting?

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11:39 p.m.
Friday, July 2, 2004

 




IS WORKS
depression creeps in..
Whitening toothpaste actually works! Just one day and I saw a difference!

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11:15 a.m.
Friday, July 2, 2004

 




AND THE RESULTS ARE
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So the results are out... We came in Third!!! .) $300 worth of cash and prizes! We are very blessed, all Glory to God from whom all our talents came from. Shout out to those who came down to support us and those who couldn't but were with us morally and in spirit! Thanks!

We got a bottle of tequila, six pack beer and two caps. Some kingfisher beer, dunno la. The rest they'll top up with cash, prolly like $50. Hahaha! But it's all good, thank God! Pheeeyuuuweeet! Great experience, great new friends, props to all the bands who took part! Aw yeah! Jemnation 2004! .)

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01:16 a.m.
Monday, June 28, 2004

 




CLAIRESFLOWERSHOP
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My band, Claire's Flower Shop will be playing in the finals of JEMNATION a band competition! We got through 2 heats and the semi-finals and we're now in the finals! (duh)

It's going to be held this coming Sunday at 69 Circular Road in a pub called 'RAV'. In case you're wondering where that is, it's directly behind Boat Quay, literally the street behind Boat Quay. It's on the Harry's Pub side.

Event starts at 9pm! Cover charge is $10! Your vote will help our score! Thanks!

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12:14 a.m.
Friday, June 25, 2004

 




A RISING TIDE
depression creeps in..
I'm still surfing the (spiritiual)high from my church retreat but I feel like I'm gonna hit the shore and start paddling out to the surf and catch another wave. The paddling is gonna be tough.

We are immortals but we live like only today matters and where we spend our next and forever life doesn't matter. Don't tell me I've been brainwashed by the church, I know there's more to the here and now, a maximum of a 100 years compared to a million years (to say the least) surely eternity means a million by a million years, numbers our puny human minds cannot comprehend.

Take heed, what you do today will affect your eternal-life, or death. .)

My memory verse, 1 John 2:17, The world and its desires pass away, but the man that does the will of God lives forever. (NIV) I hope I'm correct!

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11:53 p.m.
Friday, June 18, 2004

 




HOLA
depression creeps in..
I'm back! My com is fixed!

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12:07 p.m.
Thursday, June 17, 2004

 




UNDERSTAND THIS IS A DREAM
depression creeps in..
That'll be the album title of The Juliana Theory's first album, but I'm not quoting their song to speak my feelings... Rather it is this, "I don't want to feel this way forever, a dead letter marks return to sender." - Understanding In Car Crash by Thursday

The emotional turmoils are like surfing in Bali, you paddle and catch the wave, Sweet! you think, then you fall of your board, but wait there's more, you don't know where your board is and before you know it, it comes straight at your head, wham!.

I think unrequited love will be the number one cause of heartaches in teens, based on the survey of one person, me. I'm blogging from my friend's, won't be back so soon.

"Does he ever get the girl...?" - This Ruined Puzzle by Dashboard Confessional

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01:17 a.m.
Saturday, May 29, 2004

 




PC DIEDED
depression creeps in..
Hey loyal readers of thepike (as if i have any) please hang in there while I get my computer fixed up, oh and BTW Bali is amazing! I wanna go back soon!

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piked at
11:22 p.m.
Tuesday, May 25, 2004

 




AGE OLD QUESTION
depression creeps in..
Am I ready for a relationship? I think I am, but whenever I think I am, people will tell me I'm not, so much so that I feel I'll never be ready. How does one know? Gahhhh...

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05:12 a.m.
Saturday, May 15, 2004

 




BYEBYE SCHOOL HELLO BALI
depression creeps in..
I'm in the Books Room in school, probably and hopefully the last time I'm here! I won't miss the place, but I will miss the people that hung out here, there's no one here anyway...

A few of the Book Writing & Publishing Elective students along with Vanessa Fernandes of Urban Exchange and our dearest lecturer Mr Desmond Kon is headed to Prague, Czechoslovakia, Europe! I wanted to go, but mummy say no money, so where do I go? I go to BALI! I'm leaving on Monday morning, my flight is at 930am, anyone wanna send me off? Hehehe...

Bali Bali!!!

Ok back to the Books Room, I will miss the love, the bitching, the mad rush which will probably never be experienced again. Rushing down to Mediacorp Radio will never happen and I'll never see all these dears gathered in one place again, yes maybe I'll bump into them or something, but never one big humongous group of them, maybe a reunion ten years later will be a sweet thing to have. We'll all be rich, successful and famous!!! I hope!

For now, Bali awaits! Bwahahaha...

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04:22 p.m.
Wednesday, May 12, 2004

 




WALK OUT ON/WITH ME
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I walked out of Young Adult service yesterday evening.

Maybe it's because someone who irritated me enough to 'push' me out to leave,

or maybe cos I felt uneasy and awkward like there's no sense of familiarity,

or maybe there was so much speaking in tongues that I was feeling uncomfortable for the 2 newcomers standing infront of me

or maybe it's the mix of the sound when i finally realised the problem, it was muffled, no tone, no mids, no highs!
or maybe cos I wanted to leave and meet someone I wanted to see

or maybe it's just too small a place and I feel scrutinised, when I need to feel invisible, maybe cos I'm a sinful man

or maybe cos I think it's too wayang, like how it's a show, it IS a show, but for who? It better be for God!

It doesn't feel like home anymore, R-age doesn't feel like home anymore.

I think it's a combination of all these things, actually it is lah. Don't get me wrong though, I love the radical stuff R-age is doing but I don't think it's me. I don't feel the love. Some people are gonna say I should not base it on feelings, just you see.

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04:08 p.m.
Sunday, May 9, 2004

 




ULTIMA BOREDOM
depression creeps in..
Spick Spock Spark
None of these random word mean a thing
Nothing I find to do quenches my desire for something better
Better to what?

I'm so bored that I wrote that, like what the hell. I need meaning in my life, God. I don't know what I want right now, maybe I do. I don't dare to act upon my choices, both roads look bleak and uncertain. Hmmm...

On a much much lighter note, I had a very nice dinner at I must say one of the higher classed restaurants I've been in, Al Dente... with a new friend, (yay for new friends!). The pasta wasn't Al Dente leh... Hmmm, Jenn's lameness is rubbing off me... Hurhur. I'm so bored and aimless. Post-grad syndrome?

Chris Simpson whines at me through the speakers with Slower.

"I stand on a building and throw up my arms to the sky I swallow my pride..." Slower by Mineral, though the song's kinda like a moderato tempo. Damn I'm jenn! Oops, I meant I'm lame! Hurhur... I love yoo too broo. *Incase you're wondering, I'm NOT drunk* Good night all.

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02:28 a.m.
Friday, May 7, 2004

 




COMPOSING WEDDING BY THE OCEAN
depression creeps in..
I wrote the song, tweaked the words a bit to fit the verse, if you wanna hear it ask me to send you the rough acoustic version via the net...

wedding by the ocean
verse1
The sun will shine upon her face,
And you will walk her down the aisle,
And it won't be me

verse2
Her feet will walk her down the aisle,
Her finger will slip perfectly into the ring,
And she'll say, I do

chorus1
The waves,
They crash,
Upon my heart.

chorus2
The waves,
They crash,
And break this heart of stone.

bridge (more like a chorus3)
I'll watch from afar
As my heart falls apart

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03:04 a.m.
Tuesday, May 4, 2004

 




METAMORPHISIS OF UNTITLED #1
depression creeps in..
wedding by the ocean

The sun will shine upon her face,
And you will walk her down the aisle,
Standing before you and her will not be me,

Her feet will walk her down the aisle,
Her finger will slip perfectly into the ring,
And she'll say, I do

The waves,
They crash,
Upon my heart,
And break this heart of stone.

I will watch from afar
As my heart falls apart


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11:18 p.m.
Sunday, May 2, 2004

 




SERIES 1
depression creeps in..
"Time will heal your bitter day" August Home, Gloria


my bitter dream
I dream,

In that dream I thought I was loved,
By you.

In that dream your eyes averted my gaze,
And you walked away.


untitled #1
The sun will shine upon her face,
And you'll walk her down the aisle,
Standing before you and her will not be me,

The waves,
They crash,
Upon my heart,
And break this heart of stone.


here's to sorrow
If you have eyes to see
You would've seen
If you have ears to hear
You would've heard

If you had heart to feel
You would've felt

Here's to sorrow
Here's to pain
Here's to the broken hearts you had and will have


:1.56PM:

"Does he ever get the girl..." This Ruined Puzzle, Dashboard Confessional


If only she knew

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piked at
04:03 a.m.
Sunday, May 2, 2004

 




For the love of God
depression creeps in..
The launch at SAM was awesome, I am most proud to be part of such a smashing event. I made a small blooper! I started with the wrong song, but Vanessa saved me and made a joke out of it and I was saved the embarassment, thank you Vanessa!

There's another event tomorrow! 6pm at Tango's @ Holland Village! I think I'll be playing the guitar for Vanessa again!

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02:37 a.m.
Saturday, May 1, 2004

 




APPLE SEEDS
depression creeps in..
Mummy halved and apple and shared it with me. I asked her to cut out the core with the seeds, she say can eat them. So I ate em! Heh.

Bourbon makes you sleep real nice and good... Mmm...

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02:11 p.m.
Wednesday, April 28, 2004

 




PATIENCE PADAWAN
depression creeps in..
That was what God taught me today. A lot of shit was hitting the fan and it was splatting. But I didn't really lash out though I was very tempted at many points in the day.

11:18pm
Bourbon Coke Light sucks! But bourbon is good... OOo I'm floating... Hahaha... I'm not as gone as you may think I am... I poured too much bourbon... Chips, bourbon and emo songs... Yay...

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10:25 p.m.
Tuesday, April 27, 2004

 




CLICK THE VOTE
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A Harvard Business School professor's study shows that file-sharing has no negative effect on music sales, rebutting claims by the RIAA that file-sharing is the cause of its troubles.

Click here for full story

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02:08 p.m.
Thursday, April 22, 2004

 




AAARRGH
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I just got conned by Discovery Channel! The attention grabber for this documentary was "Why are the so many similarities amongst all the different pyramids in the world?"

I was very curious, cos they showed all the similarities and all that, but half the time I was thinking, very similar meh?

And an hour later, the narrator says "The answer is, they are not." I shouted at the tv, "IDIOT!" thrice.

!!!!!!!!!!

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04:09 p.m.
Tuesday, April 20, 2004

 




MY FIRST BOTTLE
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I bought my first bottle of hard liquor! Been wanting to for a while, feels good! The cashier asked me for my id! I'm legal ok!

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01:09 a.m.
Tuesday, April 20, 2004

 




GOD HAS NO FAVOURITES
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Have you ever thought that, God's not fair, why does He bless others while I'm in this rut? I've always thought like this, especially when I here out of this world testimonials. (God is not of this world anyway)

C. S. Lewis says in Mere Christianity, "... He shows much more of Himself to some people than to others - not because He has favourites, but because it is impossible for Him to show Himself to a man whose whole mind and character are in the wrong condition." I love this next part, "Just as sunlight, though it has no favourites, cannot be reflected in a dusty mirror as clearly as a clean one." (p. 164)

Mr Lewis makes so much sense sometimes... I'm going to have tea with him if I make it to heaven!

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12:43 p.m.
Thursday, April 15, 2004

 




BREAK ME
depression creeps in..
Lord, I give up, I need to be broken. Break me, bring me down to my knees.

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12:47 a.m.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004

 




ANOTHER NIGHT ALONE
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Wow.. what a nice subject name! It's another night where a million thoughts bombard my head, where I meditate in my toilet when I bathe, thinking about every damn think to be thought about.

Like... Can I buy love? Go to some club, buy some girl some drinks, get hooked up, maybe something will happen? I must be very rich lah, but I'm not. Besides you'll say, "what good is a girl who only befriends you 'cos you're rich?" I might say... "A smart girl?"

Uhh... will you be my valentine next year? Who'll be my valentine?

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12:02 a.m.
Saturday, April 10, 2004

 




FREAK OF NATURE
depression creeps in..
drey said... "hello to you... we are all freaks and freaks rock. ahem. ok. ok?"

And freaks must look out for other freaks. I'm a 2nd degree freak, 1st degree freaks think I'm a freak. I think.

"I'm a freak of nature" - Freak by Silverchair.

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11:09 p.m.
Friday, April 9, 2004

 




WISHFUL WISHIES
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I will never be good enough for the beautiful, smart, charming, charismatic, intelligent and rich. And if you read this I am very sure you fall into one of those categories. You.

I was silly to think that maybe I could have, maybe I could be. But I'll be a prince in my own right. The prince of shit. The prince of simple things and all things of silly pleasures. Prince of small things, but child of a big God.

Maybe I was made for a simple life, but I have desires of riches and grandeur. I will settle for less, for poverty in exchange of happiness. Teach me how.

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11:20 a.m.
Wednesday, April 7, 2004

 




FAITH IN BUSES
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It's 5:24PM, I have to be in school at 6:00PM, but I'm still in my bed. Two years ago, I'd already be in the bus by 5:24, but I have much faith in our public transport, perhaps too much.

But lately, I've realised that all my fears of being late and that it took an hour to get to school were unfounded. Well not totally unfounded, but rather, someone else WILL be later than me!



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10:52 p.m.
Tuesday, April 6, 2004

 




BMTC
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I got an invitation to go to the Pulau Tekong Chalets. It's called BMTC(halet) 1. I'm going on August 17! I get a cheap haircut and I get paid to stay there for 16 weeks, or maybe less. If I'm fit enough I can come home more often.

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01:42 p.m.
Tuesday, April 6, 2004

 




BAD SHIT
depression creeps in..
You had issues, you f*cked him up real bad, and now he has to pay and he's suffering.

My opinion of you, dips as the days go. I'm disappointed.

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04:29 a.m.
Sunday, April 4, 2004

 




AINT GOT NOTHING TO SAY
depression creeps in..
Hey I haven't been sad so I have nothing to say. But someone else has been sad and brother, I feel your anguish, your pain and your loss.

I feel anger which I don't think you feel, or you refuse to feel.

Poll: Do I look like a rabid dog in the picture on the left? (Why do I always degrade myself.. Already two people told me I look scary)

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05:29 p.m.
Friday, April 2, 2004

 




THEPIKE VERSION 4.3
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Added: Archives, Thanks and "I sport retro hair but I'm too poor to complete the look."

I'm still haven't started work with visuals... but surf my archives there are pictures littered through out. thepike is gonna be one year old soon!

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12:40 a.m.
Tuesday, March 30, 2004

 




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